Monday, April 21, 2008

The secret lives of girls......


The secret life of girls.... is that we obsess over everything. Everything that happens to us involving a guy we may like, really like, love, stopped loving etc.....always involves minor obsession over details. We re-count stupid things we did or said a million times trying to figure out what exactly it was that made him NOT call. Was it the cookie wrapper stuck to your ass (love that story Dana), the story you told about running over your ex with your car (1 too many sangrias and that story always seems to come up), or the fact that you refused to stay over his house the other night despite the fact that he SWORE you could leave your jeans ON.....You always wonder which one of these things was the TURN-OFF. But then again, you were on your best behavior and he still didn't realize that he couldn't live without you...hmmmm.
So, now that the Date is over and he obviously isn't calling, its time to obsess over the "damage control" tactics. This is where you try to come up with some cute and witty myspace message, or random flirty text message that shows that you kind of care, but doesn't make you look too desperate (this is just in case he lost your number or his phone wasn't working -you know, the REAL reason he hasn't called to set up another fabulous date night with you).
So you eventually you send the text, you are very familiar with the one "Hey, had a great time the other night lets catch up soon".....and still no response. Time to obsess again. Now you have to check your phone every 30 minutes for the rest of the night to make sure you didn't receive a text that you didn't hear. Then you have to re-read your sent text at least 3 times to make sure you didn't spell something weird, send it to the wrong person, or come off "clingy". Still no response. Eventually you are done freaking out over the text and now it is time to obsess over why you are "un-dateable", why NO ONE Likes you ever. You start to poor yourself a glass of Charles Shaw red and then you hear something beep.....
Oh, wait.......your text just went off. Yea!
Then you see his response text, it doesn't sound flirty or romantic. It just says "Come over". You look at the clock. Its 2am. Bars just closed. Time to obsess over what to do, what to wear, how to respond and "Is this a mass text, or is it just meant for me?" You know if you go over there you are turbo-slut, and you know if you don't go over there you are going to get filed away in the back of his brain along with the name of his 2nd grade teacher. So, what's a girl to do?
You tell me. :)

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

I didn't REALLY want you to call anyway.......

My phone number is like the Bermuda Triangle.
When I give it out to someone that intrigues me, they never call. Actualy, they disappear...never to be seen again.
I have to tell myself things like....they left my number in their pocket and it went through the washer machine, they left for Africa to do charity work and there is no phone, they were on an airplane to the bahamas and got lost in the Bermuda Triangle etc.... to make myself feel better and not like a total loser.
The only time a boy calls my phone anymore is after 2am when the bars close and one of my guy friends needs a ride home because he got way too drunk and no other girl was dumb enough to allow them in her vehicle.
Welcome to my life.

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Sunday, March 30, 2008

I feel it all.....


I feel it all I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide the wings are wide
Wild card inside wild card inside

Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun

I know more than I knew before
I know more than I knew before
I didn't rest I didn't stop
Did we fight or did we talk

Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun

I love you more
I love you more
I don't know what I knew before
But now I know I'm wanna win the war

No one likes to take a test
Sometimes you know more is less
Put your weight against the door
Kick drum on the basement floor
Stranded in a fog of words
Loved him like a winter bird
On my head the water pours
Gulf stream through the open door
Fly away
Fly away to what you want to make

I feel it all, I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide, the wings are wide
Wild card inside, wild card inside

Oh I'll be the one to break my heart
I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll end it thought you started it

The truth lies
The truth lied
And lies divide
Lies divide

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Alone

Just recently I have started to finally feel comfortable doing things alone. I went to a hard core show alone, I've travelled alone and I've gone to movies alone, etc....but for some reason people have issues seeing a girl do things ALONE. It is starting to become apparent that everyone that sees a girl alone in public immediately thinks that she has something wrong with her.
Today, I went to breakfast alone (before I went to church alone) and I felt like EVERYONE was staring at me as I ate my scrambled egg whites at the counter of the diner. It was like they were waiting for "the guy" I was with to show up at any time. When I went up to the cashier to pay my bill the guy actually had the nerve to ask me if I dined alone?!. Then when I replied "yes" he asked where my friends and family were?! As if that is any of his fucking business. What if I had no friends? What if I was an orphan?! What if I was a friendless orphan that just wanted to eat her f'ing scrambled eggs in peace without being harassed about her solo status? Geez people.......when I am alone, leave me alone!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentines day.

Get your slow dance on......