I feel it all.....

I feel it all I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide the wings are wide
Wild card inside wild card inside

Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun

I know more than I knew before
I know more than I knew before
I didn't rest I didn't stop
Did we fight or did we talk

Oh I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one to hold the gun

I love you more
I love you more
I don't know what I knew before
But now I know I'm wanna win the war

No one likes to take a test
Sometimes you know more is less
Put your weight against the door
Kick drum on the basement floor
Stranded in a fog of words
Loved him like a winter bird
On my head the water pours
Gulf stream through the open door
Fly away
Fly away to what you want to make

I feel it all, I feel it all
I feel it all I feel it all
The wings are wide, the wings are wide
Wild card inside, wild card inside

Oh I'll be the one to break my heart
I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll be the one who'll break my heart
I'll end it thought you started it

The truth lies
The truth lied
And lies divide
Lies divide

Alone

Just recently I have started to finally feel comfortable doing things alone. I went to a hard core show alone, I've travelled alone and I've gone to movies alone, etc....but for some reason people have issues seeing a girl do things ALONE. It is starting to become apparent that everyone that sees a girl alone in public immediately thinks that she has something wrong with her.
Today, I went to breakfast alone (before I went to church alone) and I felt like EVERYONE was staring at me as I ate my scrambled egg whites at the counter of the diner. It was like they were waiting for "the guy" I was with to show up at any time. When I went up to the cashier to pay my bill the guy actually had the nerve to ask me if I dined alone?!. Then when I replied "yes" he asked where my friends and family were?! As if that is any of his fucking business. What if I had no friends? What if I was an orphan?! What if I was a friendless orphan that just wanted to eat her f'ing scrambled eggs in peace without being harassed about her solo status? Geez people.......when I am alone, leave me alone!